Wednesday, December 30, 2009, 1:42 PM
creativity is in me ..
my creation :)
Tuesday, December 29, 2009, 12:46 AM
note to self : i hate being 17 !
why must i be treated as if I'm a kid !
you guys think I'm a kid that has to stay at home every single day.
I'm soo tired staying at home everyday .
i need to go out and enjoy my life once in awhile.
why can other 17 year old go out and even till late and night with their friends?!?!
are you telling me they are bad or what.
all of them graduated and join poly ,
and they get their freedom like a 17 year old should.
I'm at the verge of running away .
i feel free and calm outside .
than staying at home and treated like nothing .
you guys just don't trust me.
every single time i go out , you guys get pissed off and just scold me .
assuming everything i do is wrong .
forget about the past .
move on .
I'm not like your past .
never will.
just forget the shit your past did.
if you continue doing this to me ,
i swear i won't regard anyone in this house as someone i respect .
you guys don't respect me as a person and don't trust every bit of my life.
I'm just the re bounce you guys can venge your anger at .
i was never a child that you guys try to understand .
you want me to understand you guys .
when you don't even once understand me .
whatever i did you never support .
you take my talent as a dream that never going to happen .
you guys call yourself parents .
you don't even know how to understand your own child!
it's just a waste of time for you guys to go parent and child talks .
nothing is used from the talks .
you just pretend to be a good parent and think whatever you like I'm sure to like it .
i have a dream too you know!
whatever you say to me really crushed me down badly .
you don't motivate but criticized me .
fyi , my friends and teachers are better in knowing my passion and talent .
they support and motivated me to be better .
but you guys only think about your wants and needs ,
you think i want all the good things in life .
i just want trust and support from you guys for me to achieved in my passion .
i don't need you to pamper me and all.
i don't want all that .
i hate it you know.
you pampered me too much .
stop treating me like this .
just wake up.
accept the fact that i've grown up!
i just can't control my feelings already.
i've kept this for far too long now .
i just want you to know how i feel when you do all that to me .
it hurts you know to be treated as a re bounce when you guys get angry.
i've been hurt internally .
and when it comes to something you guys want me to help ,you guys treat me nicely.
you say that i treated you good when i want something , same goes to you guys !
you're just looking at your own reflection .
if i were to talk to you guys like this verbally ,
you'll be angry with me and say i don't appreciate every single thing you guys do for me.
how am i suppose to tell you how i feel.
each time I'm angry with your harsh words i kept to myself and just let it be.
but i can't keep it already now .
my heart is in pain .
I'm sick and tired with all this .
i just wish i could be far far away from all this pain .
seriously ...
Wednesday, December 23, 2009, 12:48 AM
note to self : seeing you go is forever ..nothing in this world can defeat the feeling of love .
love is part of every human being .
even how much we try to ignore love ,
it will naturally come back again.
even if we hate love ,
one day for sure you'll find love .
love is a part of life .
we can't put it away ,
or dispose it at our rubbish bin.
it's just there for us to give to the rightful person.
even if we gave to someone that wasn't meant for us,
the love will still stay within the person.
and if we gave it to someone who is rightful for us,
than cherish it ..
we'll never know when love will leave us again .
love will be with us till our last breathe ...
Friday, December 11, 2009, 8:30 PM
note to self : cherish the people we love ...SUP WORLD !
spent my 2 days at love's place.
helping her out with her baby brother.
i can say i enjoy being around them.
as if it's my family .
love treated me more than i expected .
i love you baby .
and I'm missing you badly now.
how i wish we could stay together and lived happily .
love,
there's nothing in this world that can break us apart .
just like the movie new moon .
we can go beyond the limits .
nothing can stop us .
we do things our way and chose who we want to be with ,
i'll do anything to be with you love .
i love you from the bottom of my heart ...
Remember the first day when I saw your face?
Remember the first day when you smiled at me? You stepped to me, and then you said to me,
I was the man you dreamed about.
Remember the first day when you called my house?
Remember the first day when you took me out?
We had butterflies although we tried to hide it,
And we both had a beautiful night.
The way we held each other's hand,
The way we talked, the way we laughed,
It felt so good to find true love
I knew right then and there you were the one
I know that she loves me, cause she told me so
I know that she loves me, cause her feelings show
When she stares at me, you see she cares for me
You see how she is so deep in love
I know that she loves me cause it's obvious
I know that she loves me cause it's me she trusts
And she's missing me, if she's not kissing me
And when she looks at me her brown eyes tell her soul
Remember the first day, the first day we kissed?
Remember the first day we had an argument?
We apologized, and then we compromised
And we haven't argued since
Remember the first day we stopped playing games?
Remember the first day you fell in love with me?
It felt so good for you to say those words
Cause I felt the same way too
The way we held each other's hand,
The way we talked, the way we laughed
It felt soo good to fall in love
And I knew right then and there you were the one
I know that she loves me, cause she told me so
I know that she loves me, cause her feelings show
When she stares at me you see she cares for me
You see how she is so deep in love,
I know that she loves me cause it's obvious
I know that she loves me cause it's me she trusts
And she's missing me, if she's not kissing me
And when she looks at me her brown eyes tell her soul.
I'm so happy, so happy that you're in my life
And baby now that you're a part of me
You showed me,
Showed me the true meaning of love
And I know she loves me
I know that she loves me, cause she told me so
I know that she loves me, cause her feelings show
When she stares at me you see she cares for me
You see how she is so deep in love
I know that she loves me cause it's obvious
I know that she loves me cause it's me she trusts
And she's missing me, if she's not kissing me
And when she looks at me her brown eyes tell her soul
She looks at me and her brown eyes tell her soul ...
She looks at me and her brown eyes tell her soul ...
Thursday, December 10, 2009, 12:20 AM
note to self : always be ready for the impossible ..SUP WORLD !
today was the best day of my life ... ( not only today , other days also :) )
atlast i got to watch twilight saga : new moon !
been waiting for that movie since 2 months ago .
my wait has brought me to a fantastic movie ..
it was better than twilight for me .
brought love to watch with me .
and it was a moment of truth
when love got excited seeing 'JACOB' aka 'TAYLOR' opening his t-shirt
yaya , he has a well shaped body .
so what , werewolf's are hot tempered animals ..
vampires are better .
not making a scene about things.
but overall , watching the movie with love was great.
i enjoyed it .
thanks love for watching with me :)
after all that headed to bugis .
but did stay long and walk to marina / esplanade.
sat at the stairs at esplanade and chill .
just relaxing with love was fun .
been a long time since we had time for each other.
so randomly took pictures of marina bay .
and also took pictures of love staring at ' i don't know what ' ..
edited it on i think it looks nice ..
staring at thin air ..
you are the best i ever had.
you make me yearn for your kisses even if we're kissing .
you crack my stomach with your lame jokes .
you're my love , my heart , my air to live in this world .
thanks for everything baby .
you're the fucking best ! :D
p.s. i miss you badly now .
singapore as you seen ...
Tuesday, December 8, 2009, 3:19 AM
note to self : please , please , please let get what i want this time .SUP WORLD !
check this out , i'm still wide awake at 3:07AM :)
had a small fight with love just now ...
even though i'm angry at you ,
i still love you .
not a slight change at all..
i'm sorry for being angry with you .
i was being unreasonable .
there's only
one thing
to do
to do
three words
for you ..
I LOVE YOU ! :)
I LOVE YOU ! :)
baby there's something i want to tell you.
I'm worried that i loose you
to some other guy or butch.
to some other guy or butch.
i know you won't leave me.
but there are people out there that likes you .
and that makes me scared .
i trust you won't go to them
but I'm worried they'll do things beyond my limits.
don't leave me bby :)
Sunday, December 6, 2009, 4:32 AM
lnote to self : all i ask for is trust .
SUP WORLD !
it's 4:17AM and i'm still not asleep!
i miss my bby love :(
and my coughing is killing me.
i bored to death now...
gf's asleep a few hours ago ,
and im stuck with my lappy and
black book to entertain myself in this long night .
i just finish sketching my second page ,
i think it looks okay .
i don't know .. going to show love for opinions ..
and still deciding to cut my hair or not .
it's quite long now .. and thick.
love if you're reading this ,
we're going to vybes soon .
so you can meet your hell alright :)
just kidding bby !
i miss you like crazy now .
i just want you in my arms.
i miss your kisses , hugs , cuddles ...
you make me feel great everyday .
without you my life will be soo empty .
meet up soon bby ..
i miss you badly !!!
ryanatasya*
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