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Monday, April 27, 2009, 7:42 PM

my life just suck each day i have.
it's like people just keep on splatting rubbish about me around.
i just don't get it.
seriously, i told you over and over again i really love someone else.
and that love won't change.
I'm sure of it.
i won't break my own promises.
you and your friends really pissed me off today.
i thought you knew that i won't change my mind.
and if you're jealous about me loving that someone , i'm sorry .
it seems i can't love you.
forcing won't be the same.
so might as well just let it be.
your friends keep saying "where's my gf ? " , " do i like you ? "
this questions really shows what you told your friends about me.
i really like being your friend .
but not to extend people asking me am i attached to you.
I'm not here to give you false hope.
but here to encourage you in your studies that's all.
and i think your mom doesn't like me.
so i guess we just let it be.
i can't concentrate in my studies with all this pressure happening around.
and i don't want our studies to be affected by all this.
it's not important at all.
fyi your N levels is more important than me.
so just concentrated in your studies and don't think about loving or liking
someone for now.
It's really a waste of time.
relationship don't give you a good grade in your N levels.
so just stop what you trying to do.
and i won't be having any relationship for now.

Labels: just stop it alright.

Sunday, April 26, 2009, 1:39 PM

baby there's something that i have to tell you about
can't hold it in my heart
all this pain is breaking me down
thought i found my one true love
couldn't show you how i feel
i was stupid baby my pride wouldn't let me be real
I'm asking for one more chance
baby give me your hand
so we can understand this love
i pleaded your love wouldn't pass
all the pieces of my soul want to live in your heart
i gave up my heart , i tried to be all i could be
we're coming to the ending somehow ,
i don't know what to do.
but i don't wanna forget now
i love you baby
i still do.
my heart is gonna wait forever ,
I'm still holding on to all our moments together.
we were so much in love
tell me how could you forget
wish you were here with me
but memories are all i have left
you push me away like how i did to you.
now my heart is broken.
baby i can't do it anymore.
i just want you to know that I'll always love you.

you'll always be mine in my heart .

Labels: i can't do it anymore .

Friday, April 24, 2009, 7:25 PM

the times that we had they were memorable
and the chance of us together was improbable
but i took a chance for you and everything that i've done
was for you to be happy i wanted to be your only one
i remember we talked every night
loving every millisecond, i knew this was right
we talked about being perfect in this cold dark world
but now your truth is finally told
i asked if you were sure
well i guess you didnt want it anymore
i kinda had a feeling that in the end
you'd choose to be a stranger to me.
i hope that you still care and that you still think about me
you know i think of you every night in my dreams
i really didnt mean to make things end up like this
and now im sitting here still in the cold lonely mist
can you just say that you care
i'll remember all that we shared
im stuck in 100 problems
didnt have to end up this way.

i really miss you.
i can't stop this pain i'm feeling.
where do you run to.
i want to see you.
why must all this happened to me.

Labels: you're my only one .

6:12 PM

i really don't know why i feel awkward towards you.
i don't know how to treat you as.
I'm scared if i treat you too good, you'll think differently.
but i just want us to be like normal.
i really don't know...

now i don't know how to tell you how i feel inside.
i want you to know but i don't want to make you jealous
at the same time.seriously I'm really confused with my
life.how i wish i didn't hurt Nicki in the first place.
and all this won't happened.

to that girl .
i want to text you now but I'm scared.
i want to know how's your day and all.
i want to asked you out on a date.
but I'm scared thinks will turn the other way round.
it's ok. I'll wait till things are sort out and
I'll text you.
i hope you are doing fine.

Labels: i'm not sure with my life ..

Thursday, April 23, 2009, 8:06 PM

Sup !
last night was damn fun !
for the first time i go emdd , i never felt enjoyed going .
even though there were some starring here and there
i manage to have fun with my friends.
some people wanted to pick a fight with me.
since it was public , i don't think that person would want
to make a fool of herself.
thanks fie for helping me .
made new friends.
they are fun to be with.
rachel , sarah and dj was the two people who was with me
the whole night.thanks guys.
im amazed by the dance & drama from the girls.
they are really good.
i can't describe the way they perform.
but the whole night was spent with joy and laughter.

i thought that you'll be there .
but i guess you weren't.
i'm still waiting for you.
i really love you.
and this heart won't once fade the love it has.

Labels: i think i like you ..

Tuesday, April 21, 2009, 7:19 PM

woke up at 11 feeling in pain.
didn't go to school.
when to ploy clinic to see the doctor.
can't breathe properly and having dry cough.
the irritating feeling in my throat sucks big time.
got medication and a day mc.
didn't meet my friends today.
hope everyone is fine.
tomorrow going emdd which stands for (evening , music , dance , drama).
it's gonna be fun i guess.
can't wait for tomorrow night.

I'm hoping for that one person to be at the evening concert.
i just want to meet her again.
getting to talk to her will be just great.

i just can't get over you.
i'm sorry i can't fulfilled what you asked me to do.
i know you have forgotten about me.
but i've not once forget you.
it's just so hard to replaced someone like you.
seriously, i love you more than i can love myself.
all i asked for is you to give me a second chance.
i'm really regretting my life for hurting you.

Saturday, April 18, 2009, 3:20 PM

Sup ! :)

I'm freaking bored now.
life been cranky abit.
but still working on succeeding in life.
weird things happened everyday.
just happen to get a call for a parent.
after that call i can't describe the feelings i felt.
just indescribable.
never in my life someone beg me.
i'm no one to beg at.
i'll try my best to bring what
your mom yearn from you.
love her and don't hurt her.

for some reason i just regret having a life like this.
my happiness just leave me after you left.
i know I'm nothing to you now.
it's been 3 long years since you left me.
i did tried to forget you.
but i just don't get it why I'm still thinking about you.
when I'm alone , your name is in my mind.
i just can't forget what you did for me.
i still have our picture together.
each time i call your name, i reminisced our past.
you gave me more than i asked.
but now i see no chance for me to be with you.
i didn't mean to hurt you.
i know i lied to you.
saying sorry to you doesn't change everything.
now I'm only waiting patiently to be with you again.