Thursday, August 27, 2009, 9:31 PM
Note to self : stop , think , act , remember ... I'm stress with everything around me. I'm really at the verge of giving up .
but what a waste if i give up.50 more days , and I'm done.
i just hope i could achieve what i want and also do my family proud.
I'm done with failing's my whole life. It's time to buck up.
I guess my friendship circle have to change. I'm more comfortable
with the guys. And having a guy friend is better I guess. No distraction.
Not trying to say my friends are my distraction, but I can't concentrate.
And i'm sick and tired of the teachers coming to me and nag.
I'll prove to them if it takes them to shut up.
I'll put aside my enjoyment and chilling with my friends.
Since I've stop smoking I know I can start studying.
Hopefully this quit will be for real.
I can't afford to get sick at this period of time.
Sunday, August 16, 2009, 3:32 PM
note to self: never repeat the same mistakes .This goes out to someone that was
Once the most important person in my life
I didn't realize it at the time
I can't forgive myself for the way I treated you so
I don't really expect you to either
It's just... I don't even know ..
You're the one that I want, the one that I need
The one that I gotta have just to succeed
When I first saw you, I knew it was real
I'm sorry about the pain I made you feel
I looked for the sun, but it's raining today
I remember when I first looked into your eyes
it just melts my heart ..
I wore a disguise cause I didn't want to get hurt
But i still feel the pain inside
You told me we were crazy in love
But you didn't care , and leave me ..
If you loved me as much as you said you did
Then you wouldn't have leave me like i'm nothing to you
Now you leave me with our memories
I loved you with my heart, really and truly
I guess you forgot about the times that we shared
When I would run my fingers through your hair
Late nights, just talking on the phone with you
I don't know how I could do you so wrong
I really wanna show you I really need to hold you
I really wanna know you like no one could else know you
You're number one, always in my heart
And now I can't believe that our love is torn apart
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you
I knew you gonna sit and share your life with your guy
And then sit and laugh as you're holding his hand
The thought of that just shatters my heart
It breaks in my soul and it tears me apart
At times we was off I was scared to show you
Now I wanna hold you until I can't hold you
Without you, everything seems different for me
Your name is forever in my heart ..
Damn it, I'm insane,
Take away the pain
Take away the hurt
Baby, we can make it work
What about when you
Looked into my eyes
Told me you loved me
As you would kissed me
I guess everything you said was a lie
I think about it, it brings tears to my eyes
Now I'm not even a thought in your mind
I can see clearly, my love is real
I just wish everything could have turned out differently
I guess you're not the one for me
No matter what, you'll always be in my heart
You'll always be my baby
Remember our first day, it seemed so magical
I remember all the time that I had with you
Remember we were so happy watching the fireworks?
You looked like an angel wearing that dress
I knew it was real
But now I can't take all the pain that I feel
Reach in your heart, I know I'm still there
I don't wanna hear that you no longer love me
Remember the times? Remember when we kissed?
I didn't think you would ever do me like this
I didn't think you wanna see me depressed
I thought you'd be there for me, this I confessed
You said you were my best friend, was that a lie?
Now I'm nothing to you, you're with another guy
I tried, I tried, I tried, and I'm trying
Now on the inside it feels like I'm dying ..
And I do miss you
I just thought we were meant to be
I guess now, we'll never know ...
Saturday, August 15, 2009, 10:26 PM
note to self: always getting the wrong turn.maybe it's true what some people say.i tend to fall for people who are attached.
i know it's impossible to be with them.but i still carry on wanting them.
sometimes i give up in love. it's just impossible for me to get the one i love most.
it irritates me sometimes but it's part and parcel of life. no point dwelling on it.
a poem that was inspired by someone.
you stand apart from everyone.
not knowing that my mind was
running through with questions.
i tried to hold you , but it felt
you're too far from me.
i can't stop looking at your flawless face,
that always melts my heart.
your voice are like the angels in heaven.
with your sweet smile,
you just capture my heart.
but you're just my secret lover.
goodbye my love ..
Wednesday, August 12, 2009, 7:53 PM
note to self :who am i to say that we are meant to be.things are easier said than done.
you told me to stop doing what i'm stuck with.
i can't do much now.
even if you embarrass me in public i still won't change my mind.
i am who you used to know last time.
maybe you say it's over.
but this seems it was never over for me.
it's ok if you don't realize it.
i know all this is nothing to you.
goodbye.
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