Tuesday, December 29, 2009, 12:46 AM
note to self : i hate being 17 !
why must i be treated as if I'm a kid !
you guys think I'm a kid that has to stay at home every single day.
I'm soo tired staying at home everyday .
i need to go out and enjoy my life once in awhile.
why can other 17 year old go out and even till late and night with their friends?!?!
are you telling me they are bad or what.
all of them graduated and join poly ,
and they get their freedom like a 17 year old should.
I'm at the verge of running away .
i feel free and calm outside .
than staying at home and treated like nothing .
you guys just don't trust me.
every single time i go out , you guys get pissed off and just scold me .
assuming everything i do is wrong .
forget about the past .
move on .
I'm not like your past .
never will.
just forget the shit your past did.
if you continue doing this to me ,
i swear i won't regard anyone in this house as someone i respect .
you guys don't respect me as a person and don't trust every bit of my life.
I'm just the re bounce you guys can venge your anger at .
i was never a child that you guys try to understand .
you want me to understand you guys .
when you don't even once understand me .
whatever i did you never support .
you take my talent as a dream that never going to happen .
you guys call yourself parents .
you don't even know how to understand your own child!
it's just a waste of time for you guys to go parent and child talks .
nothing is used from the talks .
you just pretend to be a good parent and think whatever you like I'm sure to like it .
i have a dream too you know!
whatever you say to me really crushed me down badly .
you don't motivate but criticized me .
fyi , my friends and teachers are better in knowing my passion and talent .
they support and motivated me to be better .
but you guys only think about your wants and needs ,
you think i want all the good things in life .
i just want trust and support from you guys for me to achieved in my passion .
i don't need you to pamper me and all.
i don't want all that .
i hate it you know.
you pampered me too much .
stop treating me like this .
just wake up.
accept the fact that i've grown up!
i just can't control my feelings already.
i've kept this for far too long now .
i just want you to know how i feel when you do all that to me .
it hurts you know to be treated as a re bounce when you guys get angry.
i've been hurt internally .
and when it comes to something you guys want me to help ,you guys treat me nicely.
you say that i treated you good when i want something , same goes to you guys !
you're just looking at your own reflection .
if i were to talk to you guys like this verbally ,
you'll be angry with me and say i don't appreciate every single thing you guys do for me.
how am i suppose to tell you how i feel.
each time I'm angry with your harsh words i kept to myself and just let it be.
but i can't keep it already now .
my heart is in pain .
I'm sick and tired with all this .
i just wish i could be far far away from all this pain .
seriously ...
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